Life is in ruins. Soon to be homeless again, physical health has deteriorated. No family, employ, friends, no social network, no hope. Afraid. Don’t drink or do drugs, just limited prescribed pain medication. Lay motionless in the closet in the dark every day all day. Numb. Tired. Sad. Feable.
I agree with Melissa that you should not try to deal with all that you are going through alone. Seek help from a health care professional. But please remember, when things seem their bleakest, there’s always hope. When we cannot see that hope for ourselves, someone else may be able to. The support from a health care professional can make all the difference.