My bestfriend of 5 years committed suicide in March of 2018. I spoke to her the day before she did it, she told me she was upset. She showed slight symptoms. And now because I didnt recognize it her friends miss her, her family wont be able to see her grow up…
First and foremost, let me stress the importance of getting personal counseling that will address the specific details of this situation that you are facing.
Having said that, I believe it is also important to realize that often people who are intent in ending their lives will give signals that they are alright. This is purposeful so that those who care for them will give them “space” creating opportunity for them to end their lives. It may help to remind yourself of this when you feel the temptation to blame yourself of your friends death.
But, again, seeking professional help is critical. It is wise not to have to face this tragedy alone.