I wish I was dead. It is Christmas Eve and I want to die. I should be happy. My head feels so heavy. My mental health is getting worse. I wanna cry. I feel so alone. Everyone else in my family is happy and I am sitting here being sad. What if I don’t live to Christmas? I wish I when I first tried to kill myself it worked. I don’t wanna ruin the fun. I will just pretend to be happy and hope no one notices. I have tried to kill myself so many times. Why won’t it work. All I want for Christmas is to be happy.

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